swim day

I LOVE swimming at andrews.. it was fun today... now another week of school :[

by the way frozen grapes after a hot day... <3

i just had to put this up...

waiting.

these days iono why but i feel like im waiting for something. Its weird cuz i dont even know what im waiting for. im sorry if im rambling but yea it just feels like the only reason things aint so crappy right now is the fact that the thing that im waiting for is coming. Could it be more fun times again? A day when everyone is clean again? A day where i will finaly get a car? The day winter comes? The day GOD comes?? IONO its weird. All i know is i feel kinda lost these days and i just want to feel like everythings gonna be alright again. On top of that.. i feel distant from God right now.. its like school just made it worse in a way. Now i have about 6 more hours of chaos that i gotta try and fit God into.. BUT i WILL do it. God is my priority and no matter how hard it is to do make God my priority sometimes im gonna do it. I hate having this feeling when i feel so distant from God. I want to have those feelings after good retreats where EVERYONE including yourself is soo pumped up for God.. its just an amazing feeling to me except rather than having a spiritual crash later in the year, I want to continue having a great relation with God. Maybe this is what i was waiting for haha... having a better relation with God again... funny i just answered my own question -__-.

... im sorry for my non sense blog just felt like typing something that was in my mind.

KOGI TRUCK!

it was quite bombdigety... ive never had a galbi burrito or bul gogi taco... mann koreans and their crazy ideas :].


Well to be honest this night was the first real fun i had all week... i mean schools all peachy and all but its going by too slowly... i want the weekend again... so funny story.. on my second day of school my teacher was going over the rules and apparently i cant stay awake these days -___- so right when shes going over the importance of paying attention... turns out i was sleeping while she said that... and i sit right in front of her... and wats more ghetto was the fact that my friends just laughed at how stupid i looked... friends can be such jerks. i bet my econ teacher hates me now... sighhh school.

sighhh

schools a dragg







it goes by soo slowly these days -___-

i could only wait for it.

these days i want winter to come soo fast... iono why its like im sick of summer now... i want the joys of winter to come along now. No more hot weather, no more trouble, new season.. new start. Im looking foreward to that winter gloom. that small joy i get out of waking up to a rainy day. the joy i get out of having friends around on a cold day. the joy out of watching rain and thunderstorms. the joy of going to the mountains for snow. the joy of CHRISTmas. HAHA if im lucky maybe the joy of having a special girl to hold onto when im freezing my butt off.. but thats just wishful thinking :]. its funny cuz every year when summers ending i get sick of the beach, surfing, weather, sun, and i want winter, snowboarding, cold... yet when winters about to end i wish for all of it back.... lol lifes funny like that.

this is the image i got in my mind when i thought of friends during the winter... these snow monkeys are so funny to me for some reason... they seemed so layed back. i wish i could hot bath everyday :]

i hate...

getting into trouble... i cant drive and my parents made me take out my earrings thats so wack -___-

the tables in life can be turned around soo damn fast.. one minute my life is flying high as im trying to live the last bits of summer... tyring to fight off the nostalgic feelings of the past events this summer.. but hahah great job mann.. i get in trouble in the last bit of summer. Damn.. why do i have to make such stupid decisions sometimes... why do i forget how important obedience is.. i can be such a failure sometimes.. i hate that.. i hate being an effin failure, it kills me. i cant take the disgrace of letting down God ONCE again. letting my parents down ONCE again. I think thats one of my worst fears.. letting down the people i love. Not living up to their standards... jeez. How the tides in life can change from a nice high tide to a mind blowing low tide. well atleast i know the tides will rise again over time...

damn

theres a hole in my wall.. my parents are gonna kill me -____-



anyways :[ schools gonna start.. i guess that times are gonna change now.. most of the people i chilled with during summer is gonna go off into their school clicks again. Grades and college apps are speeding their way to me. Long days of class are here again. Tutors and much more are here. But lets look at it on the bright side then :] theres gonna be new friends, new opportunities, more fun times, different seasons, maybe new girl? haha but yea schools here again and thats the point. im a senior now.


p.s. im really starting to miss snowboaring



snow was nice that year -->

listen to Godspeed cats and dogs. by seriously in my playlist.

Alright... so its come to my attention that there has been way to unhappy people out their lately... Why are ppl so down lately?... is it girls/boys? regrets? hard times? friendship troubles?... what ever the cause is... dont be a pessimist be an optimist. THERS ALWAYS THE ALWAYS A BRIGHT SIDE... you just have to pull your head outa your ddongko (butthole) and search for the bright side. When ever you feel like you hit a point of rock bottom remember you can always get up and start again.. start fresh. Dont linger on problems lifes to short. God has a reason for everything. listen to this people.. we have a fresh new school year to turn from hurt and crap and start fresh... "winters gone and all the clouds over my head have gone away,summers come i hope the sun is here to stay... the rain has gone away... the rain has gone away.. the rain has gone away.."

har har

street legal baby! only missed 3 :D


well to be honest.. getting a liscense was a bigger deal to me then i thought O.o. Its not just a slip of paper or a card that says you can now drive alone and gives you a hand held identity in society. But its kinda like this is one of my rights of passage in life. Just like marriage is a right of passage for couples or kids is a right of passage for a growing family... the drivers lisence to me is my right of passage sayin... i aint no kiddo no more... like dayummm haha i remember the elementry days i used to spend in hawaii or the middle school days meeting new folks and the early high school days where times were fun and i didnt have to worry about the future yet.. but now i am a senior almost at the age to be called a legal adult... "the time is now" haha. funny how time can make an individual change soo much.. from birth to growth to death. God help me stay on track as i grow... thats all i pray for.

drivers test tomorrow.

all of those people who will eventualy get rides from me... wish me luck on my test :P i pray i do well haha. cuz if i dont do well on my test... my pops and moma is gonna kill me for not practicing enough :D...

district 9

iono about other ppl but for me... this movie was pretty damn good and i definitely suggest people watch this while its still in theaters.

in another note... my mom and dad put a frog in our fish tank its so tiny haha ima name it frogger.

bleghhh

seriously time to grow up...
enough is enough haha.

hmmmm

today was cloudy yea?

hansel and gretel

sooo recently moses referred me to this korean movie called Hansel and Gretel.. it was a pretty good movie.. whata trip O.o

anyways so its currently 2:05 right now and this are a couple things running through my mind.
-damn school
-FOCUS on God
-shes interesting...hmmmmm
-"winters gone and all the clouds over my head have gone away, summers come i hope the sun is here to stayyy.. cuz the rain has gone away... cus the rain has gone away.. cuz the rain has gone awayyy."
-why the heck am i staying up so late
-i miss you.
-God i love all my best friends..
-nostalgia is soo bittersweet.

nostalgia

its funny how even the most random of songs can bring you so much missed memories.

starry nights

today was the meteor shower. i couldnt see any meteors tonight but ay... a night out with all your friends under the stars in a large open grassy park while listening to chill music makes up for everything. Honestly only God can make such a beautiful moment. haha this is what the real meaning of summer is. itll be sad when ppl will have to depart to different colleges and nights like this will fade away. Might as well make the most of it and enjoy every last second like tonight. LOL all we did was sit around thinking "damn i wish i had a girl right now." but even with out a girl in my life right now.. i think i can honestly say im 100% happy right now. i can only thank God for that. I say ppl should stop worrying about all their crap and just kick it with the true friends and look at the stars.

retreat

haha man... i gotta say i had lots of laughs, lots of friends, lots of fun... and a "revival"... something to tell me that man ive been pretty unchristian like and its time for me to be the change... be the example... be mature. hahah well yea good times... and damn mannn one of the funniest memories was:
-scaring the hell outa paul
-michelle and irene slow dancing with charlie
-MR. buffant with darky
-jason's crab toes and ppls "j's"
-and many more stuff that i cannot remember at this hour.


time just goes too fast... time is short ppl... live life for God and to the fullest.

damn..

wthell...

i found my new crush....

so my friends recently introduced me to this girl....



at 1:33 of the video... hotness mann (the "CUTE" short haired girl)

lazy

lazy days + friends = day naps, intresting convos, thinking of things to do, day dreams, swimming, lazy people laying around, <3

i love lazy summer days with the homies har harrr

Nick

well nick its finally time to let the world revolve around you. Tomorrow is your b day :] and seriously looking foreward to a nice swim/bbq NOT at sycamore :D ahah. Anyways just wanted to say thanks for all the times we chilled, swam, went to vip, chilled at church, chilled at jays, chilled at my place, chilled at andrews pad, drove me, etc... we done a lot this summer haha i gotta say i got hella close to yousss :D you mahh buddy hehehehe :]