i like this song... but its suppose to be a sad song :p

=/

why does growing up have to come so fast... im already on my last year of high school.. so much stuff i need to do... so much stuff i need to fix.. the era of no worries all play are basically gone :p its adulthood here i come.

new start?

i guess thats the hype a lot of people are aiming for these days.. glad to hear about it :] "as one door closes another one opens".. dont remember where i heard that from but i like it :]

breezy

these are my friends.

love em all man haha... its nights like this where nostalgia kicks you in the ddongko.(for the other people im closest too... if ur not here. we need to take a good picture to add to my fun memories)






i gotta throw this guy in this list :]

glad

im not sick :[ even joe got sick -___- dang.. so many sick people lately...no lie lol

haha

:] hello everyone im doing spanish hw.yeee! big brother chang is leaving in 6 days :[ time to make moments last :] time to live life :] carpe diem.

monotony

theres not much to write about in my blog these days... everyday seems so similar lol its just wake up (15 minutes after alarm), shower, then go school, stay awake in some classes sleep in the other classes, socialize with friends, go lees do hw/tutor, eat, 24 or more socializing. My days are so simple and boring these days.. yet if anything its so strange and for some reason i tend to leave my time with God out of this monotony... Its funny how God time should be apart of my monotonous life style.. but its not =/ i guess i got to work on that... maybe this will be the key to change in my lifestyle haha who knows..maybe after more time spent with God.. maybe he'll add that kick in life ive been searching for. :].

wanna draw like this :[

hmmm

i dont think ima go homecoming this year O.o ... cant seem to find a date and damn why are dances so expensive =/

and yeeee this next week and a halfs gonna be bommb... welcome home brother chang :]


this is soo sickkk

disney

what happend to the old dinsey :[ i hate all this new disney garbage -____- its like changing cute lil micky in to this...

damnnn

I JUST HAD AN ADVENTURE with danny jay and darky...


heres the story.. dont wanna retype it so i copyed a aim convo i took out part of the persons sn to protect their identity :D... jk lol
SAYS (12:26:09 AM): ..........
SAYS (12:26:11 AM): LOL!
joshylikepie (12:26:24 AM): LOL
joshylikepie (12:26:25 AM): alright
joshylikepie (12:26:26 AM): so
joshylikepie (12:26:29 AM): friggen
joshylikepie (12:26:31 AM): after we ate
joshylikepie (12:26:32 AM): and crap
joshylikepie (12:26:34 AM): i gotta kinda
joshylikepie (12:26:39 AM): pumped up
joshylikepie (12:26:41 AM): and stressed
joshylikepie (12:26:43 AM): i guess
joshylikepie (12:26:49 AM): cuz darky did somethings stupid
joshylikepie (12:26:50 AM): so
joshylikepie (12:26:58 AM): we decided to blow off soem steam at the gym
joshylikepie (12:26:59 AM): with danny
joshylikepie (12:27:00 AM): and jay
joshylikepie (12:27:01 AM): and like
joshylikepie (12:27:04 AM): after the gym
joshylikepie (12:27:04 AM): darky
joshylikepie (12:27:06 AM): came up
joshylikepie (12:27:09 AM): with the crazy idea
joshylikepie (12:27:13 AM): of walking from jays house
joshylikepie (12:27:15 AM): to our house
joshylikepie (12:27:17 AM): so that
joshylikepie (12:27:20 AM): jay could sleep
joshylikepie (12:27:20 AM): over
joshylikepie (12:27:25 AM): so we decided to do that...
joshylikepie (12:27:27 AM): but as we went
joshylikepie (12:27:30 AM): we realized
joshylikepie (12:27:36 AM): that the fine was 400
joshylikepie (12:27:37 AM): dollars
joshylikepie (12:27:39 AM): for curfew
SAYS (12:27:44 AM): LOL
joshylikepie (12:27:45 AM): so we started hoping fences
SAYS (12:27:46 AM): SAME FOR US
joshylikepie (12:27:51 AM): and cutting through
joshylikepie (12:27:56 AM): apartments
SAYS (12:27:56 AM): throughh houses?
SAYS (12:27:57 AM): LOL
joshylikepie (12:27:58 AM): yeaaa
SAYS (12:28:03 AM): K KEEP GOIN
joshylikepie (12:28:04 AM): so we wont get exposed on the main street
joshylikepie (12:28:05 AM): then
joshylikepie (12:28:06 AM): like
joshylikepie (12:28:07 AM): we hopped
joshylikepie (12:28:09 AM): this one fence
joshylikepie (12:28:14 AM): and as i hoped over
joshylikepie (12:28:20 AM): im extremely tired from the gym
joshylikepie (12:28:22 AM): so i needed help
joshylikepie (12:28:24 AM): to hop
joshylikepie (12:28:24 AM): it
joshylikepie (12:28:28 AM): and its a HUUUGE
joshylikepie (12:28:29 AM): fence
joshylikepie (12:28:32 AM): so i got over
joshylikepie (12:28:33 AM): but then
joshylikepie (12:28:33 AM): danny
joshylikepie (12:28:34 AM): and jay
joshylikepie (12:28:36 AM): and darky
joshylikepie (12:28:38 AM): from the otherside
joshylikepie (12:28:40 AM): see a lady
joshylikepie (12:28:42 AM): on the other side
SAYS (12:28:45 AM): HAHA
joshylikepie (12:28:47 AM): talking on the phone
joshylikepie (12:28:53 AM): looking out her window
joshylikepie (12:28:58 AM): and it turns out she was calling the cops
joshylikepie (12:29:02 AM): and i was carrying
joshylikepie (12:29:05 AM): 2 back packs
joshylikepie (12:29:06 AM): cuz darky
joshylikepie (12:29:09 AM): gave me hyis
SAYS (12:29:12 AM): mhmm
joshylikepie (12:29:13 AM): so i looked like a robber
joshylikepie (12:29:14 AM): so
joshylikepie (12:29:15 AM): danny
joshylikepie (12:29:17 AM): was like
joshylikepie (12:29:19 AM): CRAP JOSH
joshylikepie (12:29:22 AM): wat are u gonna do?!
joshylikepie (12:29:26 AM): and i cant rehop the fence
joshylikepie (12:29:28 AM): so i tell em
joshylikepie (12:29:29 AM): to go
joshylikepie (12:29:33 AM): around
SAYS (12:29:33 AM): ITS LIKE A MOVIE
SAYS (12:29:34 AM): AHAHHA
joshylikepie (12:29:36 AM): and ill meet em up
joshylikepie (12:29:43 AM): so i friggen
joshylikepie (12:29:44 AM): jet
joshylikepie (12:29:46 AM): through
joshylikepie (12:29:53 AM): and cut through more fences
joshylikepie (12:29:56 AM): and hop
joshylikepie (12:29:57 AM): it into
joshylikepie (12:30:04 AM): the main road
joshylikepie (12:30:06 AM): so im exposed
joshylikepie (12:30:08 AM): to cops now
joshylikepie (12:30:09 AM): -____-
joshylikepie (12:30:17 AM): so i hi tailed my butt to
joshylikepie (12:30:21 AM): the suburbs
joshylikepie (12:30:29 AM): where my house can be reached with out
joshylikepie (12:30:34 AM): being next to the main road
joshylikepie (12:30:37 AM): but meanwhile
joshylikepie (12:30:46 AM): jay darky and danny
joshylikepie (12:30:51 AM): got caught by that lady
SAYS (12:30:55 AM): HAHA NO WAY
joshylikepie (12:30:57 AM): and she took a pic of them
joshylikepie (12:31:02 AM): thinking they vandalized her car
joshylikepie (12:31:03 AM): the other
joshylikepie (12:31:03 AM): day
joshylikepie (12:31:06 AM): so they told her
SAYS (12:31:08 AM): .... what the heck
joshylikepie (12:31:11 AM): the story of not wanting a ticket
joshylikepie (12:31:12 AM): and crap
joshylikepie (12:31:13 AM): so
joshylikepie (12:31:19 AM): she gave em a ride
joshylikepie (12:31:20 AM): but...
joshylikepie (12:31:21 AM): the thing
joshylikepie (12:31:25 AM): was she still took a pic...
joshylikepie (12:31:26 AM): anyways
joshylikepie (12:31:34 AM): as i got through the neighborhood
joshylikepie (12:31:38 AM): i had to keep runnning
joshylikepie (12:31:43 AM): cuz i looked really suspicious
joshylikepie (12:31:48 AM): cus i had two backpacks
joshylikepie (12:31:49 AM): -____-
joshylikepie (12:31:51 AM): and
joshylikepie (12:31:51 AM): then
joshylikepie (12:31:53 AM): i took a rest
joshylikepie (12:31:57 AM): when i heard danny
joshylikepie (12:31:58 AM): and darky
joshylikepie (12:32:01 AM): and jay were coming up
joshylikepie (12:32:02 AM): the hill
joshylikepie (12:32:03 AM): but
joshylikepie (12:32:07 AM): turns out
joshylikepie (12:32:10 AM): i was next to a car
joshylikepie (12:32:13 AM): FULL OF GIRLS
joshylikepie (12:32:20 AM): and they were like freaking out
joshylikepie (12:32:28 AM): cuz they thougt i was a frggien stalker...
joshylikepie (12:32:31 AM): -_____-
joshylikepie (12:32:36 AM): and like
joshylikepie (12:32:37 AM): yea
SAYS (12:32:40 AM): HAHAHAHAH
joshylikepie (12:32:43 AM): we eventualy made it home
SAYS (12:32:46 AM): THIS
joshylikepie (12:32:47 AM): and now were eating chimichangas
SAYS (12:32:50 AM): MAKES MY STORY
SAYS (12:32:52 AM): LOOK LIKE
SAYS (12:32:58 AM): A NURSERY RHYME OR SOMETHING
SAYS (12:33:00 AM): LOL

i soo tired today mann

iono why i so tired today mann it drive me nutts.. lol thank God for this weekend ima sleep in LIKE CRRRRAZY on saturday :D

i swear in time this is gonna be me at school if i keep this up

another one of those restless nights.

i never realized it.. but its good to have these blog things in a way i guess its my own way to vent to people without actually dumping the weight of my problems on to their shoulders but at the same time cuz its public i can always be open to advice. anyways... i still cant shake this awkward feeling ive been getting these days... i mean its not like im depressed or unhappy cuz hell ull see me smiling most of the time u see me cuz thats just who i am :]... but this is the side of me that ive been trying to hold down and figure out myself... and i just cant figure it out anymore.. it feels like theres this hole... and i just cant figure it out... Its like back when life was simple, fun, ignorant to the messed up world everything was happy.. i was on track with God, healthy, everyone was CLEAN, diligent, life was good. but now days i just dont get it... WHY CANT I GET ON TRACK anymore... like i feel like such a hypocrite these days saying I WANT to CHANGE now... but give it an hour or two and the mind set of change turns into i dont give a crap. I have no intention of writing a cheesy blog about LIFE that just seems deep and cool... this is what i think and im sick of feeling like a derailed train headed straight for a cliff.. the question is how do i get the train on track again... it just makes me stumble and makes me feel empty that i cant fix this problem. i want this hole in my life to filled up again... i guess i basically need God i need that certain revival again. All i can do is put 100% effort into change and learn about the word.. and pray "God please grant me the strength to turn from the influences, give me the strength to be the CHANGE, give me the strength to not be a hypocrite but rather a respected, caring, genuine friend to everyone and at the same time a holy (set apart) christian." I want a revival.. not just to myself but for EVERYONE.. haha remember the times when retreat or missions would just end and EVERYONE would be on fire for God doing the RIGHT thing all the time... i want that.. i want that so badly.. just how... how can i change.. how can people change.. God i pray you can help me start by being the influence now... i wanna devout myself to constantly become the change... damn thats so repetitive by now..."change" but ay i guess thats the theme in my life these days.. things have turned for the worse so now i want change. I want to be a pastor when i grow up.. and i used to wonder what can i say to change people. And i figured lately.. turns out i do have a testimony.. in a way its all about change.. accepting God is all about a 180 degree turn away from sin.. Its such a struggle to be a christian.. but what separates Christians from non believers is the fact that we TRY to change we LOVE God and although we dont get saved by actions.. because of the love we have for God we exert that love ina physical form to show the world Gods love and to ultimately serve him... haha time to mature...

times are getting harder

so listen this is whats on my mind right now.. dont ask questions why or what evers im just venting out my thoughts... Things are getting wack now... too much crap being talked about us.. to much changes for the worst... friends getting into fights.. friends breaking apart.. Love breaking apart.. wthell mann is it just me or what is going on to everybody. Maybe im just over analyzing crap but yea.. i need change now. IM so sick of everything just flushing down the crap hole lately... what happened to the times where things were CLEAN FUN.. times where we would think about our lives and only see bliss, friendship, more days of fun up ahead, ignorance to the outside world of drugs,sex,crime. What happened to the simple times. haha i always knew things will only get harder but dang i didnt know there be so much change with it. its like i dont even recognize some people anymore.

anyways sorry bad day = i need to vent out somehow...

in the meantime theres a flip side.. who said that just cuz things in my eyes seem wack, makes everything messed up. Everyone has their bad days i guess mines just had to come today.. but days almost over and its a fresh start for me in a bout 10 minutes or less haha. Speaking of fresh start i cant wait for this winter to hit with full force... :] well a word of advice from me... dont keep the bad stuff from letting u smile... Smile all the time... even at the lil things dont let one bad day,friend,relationship,teacher,etc close your eyes to the wonders of the rest of the world God gave us.. and remember ignorance is bliss if yall know what im talking about... who said being innocent was ever a bad thing.
anyways time for me to stop venting like a weirdo and time for me to live life happily again. Sighh i need to rely on God remember... even through ur hardest moments doesnt mean God isnt always there.. he loves you and hes always got your back and Thank God i have him backing me up iono how id live without him :]. good riddance to this day.