waiting.

these days iono why but i feel like im waiting for something. Its weird cuz i dont even know what im waiting for. im sorry if im rambling but yea it just feels like the only reason things aint so crappy right now is the fact that the thing that im waiting for is coming. Could it be more fun times again? A day when everyone is clean again? A day where i will finaly get a car? The day winter comes? The day GOD comes?? IONO its weird. All i know is i feel kinda lost these days and i just want to feel like everythings gonna be alright again. On top of that.. i feel distant from God right now.. its like school just made it worse in a way. Now i have about 6 more hours of chaos that i gotta try and fit God into.. BUT i WILL do it. God is my priority and no matter how hard it is to do make God my priority sometimes im gonna do it. I hate having this feeling when i feel so distant from God. I want to have those feelings after good retreats where EVERYONE including yourself is soo pumped up for God.. its just an amazing feeling to me except rather than having a spiritual crash later in the year, I want to continue having a great relation with God. Maybe this is what i was waiting for haha... having a better relation with God again... funny i just answered my own question -__-.

... im sorry for my non sense blog just felt like typing something that was in my mind.